So if you didn’t know by now, I have resigned from my assignment in the Peace Corps and moved on to a different chapter in my life. Although there are many reasons that I made this decision, I am going to try and outline the major reasons why I took this action.
1.Lack of Integration
This is the biggest reason why I failed to finish my two years of service with Peace Corps Perú. Perú is the first country that I had ever visited that wasn’t considered “first world”. I had experienced impoverished cities and areas, of course, in the United States and other places around the world, but none quite to the level or as quite as widespread as what I experienced here in Perú.
My first three months were in a suburb of Lima and I had a lot of the modern conveniences that I was used to: wi-fi, TV, running water, (some) paved streets. It wasn’t the same as the states (by far), but with a little bit of time it became familiar and the little things became part of the background. I then moved to my site, in July, which was supposed to have been my site for 2 years. Junín, Junín, Junín. Moving to Junín is when things started to become significantly more difficult for me. I went from living in a small neighborhood with 20 other Americans and seeing 60+ at training on a daily basis to seeing maybe one or two Americans a couple of times a week. I always considered myself a reserved person that enjoys being alone, but this was a type of alone that I had never experienced before. My Spanish level was rated at intermediate, but I was not able to effectively communicate with the people there. I was taught formal Spanish, but the people in my community spoke with many slang words and phrases. It also seemed like they exclusively used synonyms for every word that I had learned. Simple words like school, beer, and blue are translated to escuela, cerveza, and azul. These are the words that I had in my vocabulary. In Perú, school, beer, and blue (referring to eyes) translate to colegio, chela, and celeste. Never in my life, except for when I was an infant, had I not understand people or was not able to communicate my thoughts effectively. This was an extreme hindrance to my ability to integrate with people; if I can’t speak and be understood or listen and understand what they say, how am I supposed to relate to anyone?
What this led to was a gradual trend of the avoidance of people because I felt that it was pointless and the anxiety that it brought was not worth it. Over the six months that I was in site I eventually did start to understand basic things that my counterparts and host family would talk to me about, but that just led to more misunderstandings. When I told my host mom that I had been cooking my own food for ten years she literally laughed out loud at me because, “men don’t cook food”. Well at least in her world men didn’t cook food and it was very difficult to accept that and some of the other beliefs that were very prevalent in the small Andean town that I was trying to integrate myself into.
I learned that it’s a very complex issue to hold on to your own personal beliefs and still connect with others that might have 100% opposite values to that of yourself. All of these small aspects added up to be ultimately what was the biggest reason of my unhappiness/dissatisfaction/frustration/feeling of uselessness in the Peace Corps.
2.Rules
Rules are one of those things that I have a love/hate relationship with. I don’t mind having rules at all when I can clearly understand what they’re there for and how they make the system ultimately better. What I do mind is having rules forced upon me for reasons that I don’t accept as valid. In Peace Corps Peru, I feel like there are a lot of the latter.
When one signs up for the Peace Corps, they know that they will soon be “working” for the United States government and will be subject to the bureaucracy of Washington and our leaders. What I didn’t know was to what extent I was going to have to give up so much freedom in order to volunteer myself. I was/am naïve about helping the world and forgave many other opportunities in order to do what I thought would make the world a better place someway somehow, but in order to do that, one must regress in one’s life to when they were a child, rule speaking of course.
Peace Corps Peru has the disreputable title of being one of the more dangerous countries for volunteers. We have a lot of incidents that deal with rapes, theft, and other lesser petty crimes. Washington doesn’t like this and puts pressure on the PC Peru staff to get the numbers down. This, in turn, means that the volunteers here have more rules/less freedom than other countries might have. Add to that the grandness of how large Peru is and how spread out volunteers are and there are even more rules. What this led to was a feeling of breaking the rules even when I wasn’t doing anything wrong to begin with. Gossip about other volunteers gets around pretty quickly when you’re living in the Peruvian countryside and we would hear about people getting kicked out for this reason or that person getting kicked out for that reason and what it led to was making volunteers want to communicate less with the staff.
Here is a short list of some of the rules:
- No driving a car
- No driving a motorcycle
- No riding in a motorcycle
- No leaving your department (kind of like a state)
- No going to Lima
- No visiting Piura even on vacation
- No visiting Lambayeque even on vacation
- No visiting Tumbes even on vacation
- Living with a host family for entire 2 years
- Texting whenever we leave our site
I could list many more, but I don’t want to bore you too much.
3. Living Circumstances
One doesn’t join the Peace Corps in order to live luxurious or high-class lives, but even though we all know that it’s going to take some adjustment to get used to, it’s still hard on most, if not all, volunteers. I’ve always thought of myself as being extremely low maintenance when it comes to lifestyle. In winter, I kept my apartment at a chilly 55 degrees and in the summer I kept it in the mid or upper 70s to conserve electricity and money. I also lived on busy highways in Knoxville, Seattle, and Miami so the noise wouldn’t be an issue. I had learned to adapt to whatever environment I was in at the moment.
Most buildings here are not built the same as they are in the US. Given the latitude that Peru is in, it is generally warm to hot all year, with the exception of the highlands. There are also a plethora of deserts along the coastline. With this combination, it isn’t completely necessary to have the houses or buildings 100% sealed from the outside. It’s not inherently a bad thing, but there are sometimes when you want to shut out the outside world and that option isn’t usually available here. My room in Chosica during training had a window missing and while thankfully there were no bugs or critters that crawled in (to my knowledge at least), there was an insane amount of noise from the street that continued at all hours of the day/night. I was routinely woken up by chickens crowing at 2:30 am or moto-taxis zipping around the corner until 3 in the morning. I slept with ear plugs every night, but the noise was so intense that it didn’t always help.
Once I moved to my house in Junín, I encountered a different set of challenges with my living circumstances. It’s high up in the Andes and only warm on its sunniest of days and frigid every single night. I’m talking about sub-0 temperatures on a nightly basis. When I showed up for the first month or so, my family was nice enough to have a bed ready for me so I wouldn’t have to buy one the first week or sleep on the floor, but the bed was, um, not adequate for my weight or height to say the least. The wooden beams holding up the pad that I slept on fell apart on me one night when I was sleeping. Talk about waking up freaked out! I also used roughly 7-8 blankets to stay warm and that usually wasn’t enough for me anyways. Peeing in the middle of the night is inconvenient normally, but here it was downright depressing to get out from the lukewarmth of my bed. One of the fellow volunteers gave me the tip to use hot water bottles under the blankets to help warm me at night: what a great idea! I starting using that and it was a lifesaver until one morning when I woke up and thought to myself, “hmm, my leg hurts…but I haven’t done anything…”. I pulled up my sweatpants leg and pulled down my knee high wool socks and discovered that I had two giant blisters on the side of my calves. WTF?! I had, at least, 2nd degree burns that I had slept through. How is that even possible?
The combination of all of these things is what ultimately led me to decide that the Peace Corps just wasn’t for me. It hasn’t all been bad though; I’ve met amazing people, seen amazing places, and learned more about this part of the world.
Now I have taken residence in the capital of Peru: Lima. I teach English in the city center and have found much more peace and happiness in my life. I don’t know exactly what the next step in my life is, but I’m excited to see where it takes me.






